You look at me and see the same person but, on the inside, I’m existing in a living nightmare..! C. A. Marriday A repeat ETV (Endoscopic Third Ventriculostomy), performed on 4 May 2021, brain surgery #6, resulted in a haemorrhage during surgery. The effects of which have only escalated...
Articles with the Tag Depression
There’s so much more going on beneath the surface than you realise!
An iceberg seems appropriate for this post and, the sinking of the Titanic, is a perfect example of not realising the full extent of what lurks beneath the surface, hence the image I chose to use. IMHO! The unseen can sometimes cause more damage than what’s apparent to the...
Looking after your mental health
Mental health challenges, are nothing to scoff at. I do believe that most people experience something (or even a few) that adversely them, at one point or another. I’m not ashamed to say I have my fair share of ups and downs. It’s never easy to deal with and,...
Hydrocephalus: Confessions at the edge…
I don’t regard myself as suicidal. It’s a very serious thing, to say the least. Therefore, I will NEVER make light of it. Too many people have ended their lives this way and the after-effects do not escape me. Despite being told that I am, treated with medication and...
Hydrocephalus: Resuscitation through conversation…
Do you ever have conversations, sit back later and realise there was a message in it for you? It’s no secret, my previous consultation left me a bit down in the dumps (Ok, very much so!). I slipped down the same slippery slope, like so many other times before,...
Hydrocephalus: Figuring out the next move…
In my last post, I mentioned that I had something to be grateful for and realised since then, there’s actually quite a few things, given my current situation. Firstly, I’m still breathing. That in itself is reason enough to be grateful. My job has kept my mind occupied and...
Hydrocephalus: Same shit, different country…
There seems to be a universal law when it comes to the way we are treated as Hydrocephalus patients. (Or, I’m just being overly sensitive – you be the judge of that). I know for a fact that, what I’ve experienced below and so many times before, is not...
Do you ever suffer from depression? There’s more to it than you think…
A question asked so often, it seems, by doctors. Is this a standard question? Maybe I’m missing something… It’s definitely one that, once asked, gets my back up. Inside, I cringe in anticipation…I take momentary offence and at some stage feel wounded with the knowledge of having been here...
What do you do when you HAVE to be the strong one despite having Hydrocephalus?
Diagnosed at age 29, in full-time employment and a mother of 2 (now 3), I had no other choice but to be strong. The thing about being diagnosed with an invisible illness and going through 4 brain surgeries is that not even your own family gets it. They look...
Why is depression a diagnosis that Neurologists like to jump to with Hydrocephalus patients?
Since my last post, I can’t really admit to feeling much better. I sincerely wish I could just lie and shake this shit off me. Click my fingers and voila! But alas… My MRI results have come back with normal ventricles and a patent stoma – Meaning, my ETV...