“Practice being in the here and now, this is the most important moment in your life”
I’ve heard this saying before…many times in fact. I’m a procrastinator by nature, I think things through hundreds of times. I’m forward thinking as well…sometimes I go too far ahead. I have found myself thinking beyond my death, to my 5-year-olds wedding day and the children she will have.
Admittedly, I have caused myself much stress and anxiety by thinking ahead. Some (including me) say, it’s good to plan ahead…you never know when you will need to put a backup plan in place (or a backup of a backup…see where I’m going with this?)
Aside from the traits above, I am an analytical person as well. I normally analyse everything, it has proven to be a good trait to have. However, I have also analysed this to the point where I realise there is no balance. I drive myself batty and literally feel like a cat playing with a ball of yarn, caught and tangled in knots. I have many medical ailments…some explained, some unexplained. I don’t enjoy feeling sick all the time, I don’t like feeling sorry for myself and most of all, I don’t enjoy knowing that every day spent feeling like crap is a day of my life wasted…
So this morning, I decided to download some apps with motivational quotes. The quote above is one of the first I read and it hit the mark. I decided I’m going to read a quote a day and really digest it, making it a part of my life and in time…live a better, happier life. The most important decision I made, along with this, is that my life is precious. I deserve to live a happy life and my body deserves the attention I am now seeking. Right now, I’m sitting in the waiting room at my GP, its the first step I’m making toward this. A few weeks back, the analogy came to me but quietly and very quickly left me as life took over. And, that was when I took my car for its Warrant Of Fitness. This is a check to make sure your car is roadworthy and good to do the job it was designed for…so I’m here for my physical WOF.
I’m going to TRY to “Practice being in the here and now” because I know for a fact that “this is the most important moment in my life“. I don’t want to live with regrets. I don’t want to look back on my life and utter the words “If only I had…” Or “I wish I had…” My children will grow up, that is inevitable. I might not even be around when my daughter gets married or has her first baby…BUT, I am around now.
I think I’ll start with that for now and leave the procrastinating and analysing for when the time comes…which honestly said…I hope is never! I just want to stop worrying about everything and everyone else…mostly, I want to be happy…
The point is, no-one knows when their last day on earth will be. No matter how I analyse it, I cannot predict the outcome. So it makes sense to say, “live in the here and now“…in fact it makes perfect sense to someone who is desperately clinging to the end of their rope. I would rather see the sun shining or enjoy playing in the rain than worry about STUFF!
Being the realist that I am too, I know it won’t be an automatic change. That is why I said I would TRY…and I’ll end it off with one of my favourite quotes