Hydrocephalus : Are you ever hesitant to start over?

Hydrocephalus : Are you ever hesitant to start over?

There are so many situations we are presented with in life, where we need to start over.  Some situations we shy away from and tell ourselves “Its not worth it” and, I guess (given the circumstances at the time), we’d be right.  Some situations, however, require us to start over regardless of what we feel, fear or anticipate going right or wrong.

When I left my home country, I didn’t realise how different things would be in terms of my medical care.  I didn’t take into account the possibility of things not working out or being less than ideal.  I didn’t anticipate the obstacles or challenges I’d encounter – how could I?  It’s probably my naivety or the fact that I like to believe in the good of all things, before being suspicious of the alternative…

One would think that in view of what I know now and, my experiences thus far, that I’d avoid placing myself in that same position again.  Well…it’s not that simple after all.

If you’ve been following my blog, you’ll know that I’ve recently moved countries (yet again).  The reasons are not really that important right now.  What is important and in line with this post, is the fact that I’ll have to start all over again (in more ways than one).

At the top end of the list…finding a Neurosurgeon I trust and someone, I feel comfortable enough with, to perform brain surgery on me, if and when the time comes (I’d rather that not be the case but…).

The experiences I had before and after moving the first time have been “educational” (to say the least).  I choose to look at the “lessons” I get to take away from all those times and use them to my advantage this time around.  Too often we look at a negative situation and avoid it at all costs because our fear leads us to believe that history will repeat itself.  Truth be told, I’m at a point in my life where I’m more than willing to take chances regardless of that internal fear.  I’m taking a leap of faith and putting myself out there again (medically speaking of course).  I know I will find a good doctor to take care of my Hydro needs because despite being disappointed, one too many times by others in the same field, I believe there are good doctors who go above and beyond the call of duty.  (I just need to find him/her).

So…if you find yourself hesitant and maybe even a little deflated by bad medical care, people who seem to care less and don’t listen when you seek medical help, I want you to remember this:

Giving up is not an option.  You need to keep on keeping on because you are worth it.

Don’t let your spirit be crushed and never stop fighting to be heard.  In fact, you don’t even need to be loud to be heard to get a message across.  All you need, is to keep your head high, above water and to give this life the biggest kick under its butt that you can.

Starting over doesn’t mean you failed, it only means you’ve had a slight detour, took the scenic route, learnt a few things and came out the other side a little wiser.

Also, it’s never too late to start…

Published by Skyewaters

I blog about Hydrocephalus to give a voice to the millions (if not billions) of people around the world with this condition NOT disease.  As much as these experiences are unique to me and my family, I’m sure others have experienced it too.  My aim…to shine a light on it and raise awareness – simple and challenging at the same time but worth it!

1 Comment

  • Kelleen M Windsor

    January 13, 2019 at 5:57 pm Reply

    You have my support as much as I possibly can my friend💝💝💝

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